Run Baby Run: Getting Back into the Swing of Things And Silencing my Inner Critic


I have fallen in and out of love with running for over four years now. Here’s the thing: running isn’t enjoyable when you first start, but the more I do it – especially combined with some strength training and yoga – the more I love it.

But over those four years, I have pressured myself when it comes to fitness. I constantly had a voice in my head saying ”sure you ran 8km today, but someone else ran 16km at a much faster pace. So you need to work on that.”

And that little voice, that inner critic, is what made me quit all these times. I’m a pretty competitive type A person, and without noticing I was constantly competing. With myself more so than with others. And although that is a great source of motivation, getting myself down because I wasn’t where I wanted to be fitness wise is not healthy. Not if it actually makes me feel worse about myself.

But I’m done with that critic, it does not fit with my 2018 resolution of being kind to myself.

I have been getting back into my running routine for the past few weeks or so. And I’m trying really, really hard to just work through it and have patience, without feeling like I’m never doing enough. I want to be better, sure. I want to improve my PR’s and run races again. I still have the dream of running a full marathon someday, something I haven’t been able to get out of my head in the past few years.

So here’s to actually running on a regular basis. Trusting the process. Being okay with where I am. Being kind to myself.


A sunny day and a long run

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Do you know that feeling you get when you just wake up in a bad mood? Yeah, that feeling. I got it a couple of days ago when I didn’t have to get up a certain time, it’s summer break after all. I was just not feeling it.

It took all my willpower to drag myself out of bed. I couldn’t write, I didn’t have the patience to read, and I also didn’t feel like watching anything online. Nothing sparked my interest. I was feeling sluggish and uninterested.

I’ll just do a short 5k run. That’s what I told myself as I laced my running shoes and stepped outside. Just get moving. 

Okay, maybe 6k or 7k. But I kept going. And as I kept going I started feeling better and better. I listened to an interesting podcast (recommendations here) and enjoyed the sun on my face. It’s been so rainy and gloomy here recently that the sun was a welcome visitor.

Physical fitness is not only one of the most important keys to a healthy body, it is the basis of dynamic and creative intellectual activity. – John F. Kennedy

And I ended up running my longest distance ever. I’ve only gotten back into running a couple of months ago and longer distances is still a bit daunting to me.

Twelve kilometers later I felt better than ever. I’m was (and am) grateful to be able to walk. To have a body fit enough to run and move. To have a beautiful quiet area close by where I can run as much as I want. I’m grateful for sunny days and beautiful sunsets. And so much more.

My Monthly Memories: March

My Monthly Memories is a blogging event created by Basant She. This event is a way of keeping a collection of everything you’ve been going through, what you’ve experienced and what you’ve learned. 

I know I’m late with this, but let’s just ignore that.

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March was busyyyyyyy. Not just with work and school. I also sort of threw around a lot of my habits and started eating healthy and working out more. Which, not so surprisingly, makes me feel way more energized. I’m loving it and although I’m only doing distances of 5k and shorter right now, I’m thinking about signing up for a half marathon in December.

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I made a new friend on one of my evening runs!

Now, I just said that I am changing some of my habits and am trying to eat healthier and more mindful, but that doesn’t mean there wasn’t any good food involved this month. I’m surprised how healthy one can eat by just choosing healthier options and knowing what you’re actually putting in your mouth. I went to a foodtruck festival with lots of different foods to choose from. I like that – trying foods from all over the world, it’s one of my favorite things to do when I’m visiting a new place as well.


Of course I still read, although not as much as I would like to. I think Stephen King’s ‘Finders Keepers’ was my favorite book of the month. It’s the second book in the Hodges series (‘Mr. Mercedes’ being he first one) and I really enjoyed both of them! This isn’t King’s usual genre, as there are no supernatural aspects in the books, which makes it even more interesting.

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April is going to be just as busy, maybe even busier because it’s the month I have to finish my thesis, but I hope to squeeze in some more blogging time!

What have you been up to recenly?